I find myself in a situation I have never been in before.
I was going to write a bit of a narrative about it, but then I realised that if I gave even the vaguest details about where I work and what I do, it might be possible to identify my employer, and this might prejudice my situation. So I will confine myself to the basics, and give the detail at some point in the future when it is all resolved.
After over two years working for my current employer, it suddenly seems that they think I am not good enough. The company has been in financial difficulty from the outset, but a recent financial restructuring has led to both optimism about the future and very heavy pressure on all employees to perform. I have had intense pressure put on me, and this has been a challenge. After all the problems with Anna's health this year, this pressure was pretty much the last straw and it started to affect my health. I had a variety of symptoms (no details, you might be eating) of which the main one was that I couldn't sleep. Eventually, I went to the doctor who signed me off for two weeks, basically for a rest.
I was then called in for a meeting with my boss. At this meeting I was told that my performance was unacceptable, and I was given the option to move to another role, at a much reduced salary, in another part of the business. The alternative, it was hinted, was a disciplinary process for misconduct.
I am completely outraged by this. I'm not perfect (who is?), and I have made the occasional blunder in my work, but nothing that warranted anything more than a quiet chat and a chance to put it right. Looking back over my career with the company, I can't see any substance to their claim that I am incompetent. And yet, now that they have clearly lost their confidence in me, and I my trust in them, I cannot see my way to returning to work.
I am seriously considering resigning and looking for another job. There are a couple of opportunities out there that I have had my eye on for a while, and one of these may come to something. To be honest, I would rather be collecting trolleys in Tesco's car park than going back to work at XXX at the moment.
On the positive side, I have now had a week off work (and not just 'off work' but trying, as far as possible to ignore it completely) and my sleep pattern has returned to normal. As a result of that, I feel tons better, and the other symptoms are starting to retreat. So please don't worry about me. I am fine, but I find myself in a very difficult and, for me, unprecendented situation that will need careful handling.
Next week, I plan to speak to the Citizen's Advice Bureau and ACAS, as I believe I may have a case for constructive dismissal. There's a lot of background detail to support this which I obviously can't go into here.